forget me nots

This is totally not what i am use to, in fact this is more a tiffany-esque type page but i find myself succumbing tot he flowers and the atmosphere that valentines brings. No i have never had a valentine nor to i perceive that i might have one this year. yet what this world needs now is truly love sweet love, its about the only thing that theres just to little of. i need warmth, something warm and fuzzy within my life to ignite whatever passionate embers i may have... so i can be complete once again (thats taken that i was once before). Lately i feel as though i have thrown a lot of myself away and now i must go back and pick up the pieces. i went to the beach with my bestest enemy in the world and we stood there feeling the cold brisk air of the night and the dark hoolow waves crash to and fro. i gained a lil something. i sat there with johne peering at th e city below us and in that moment with all those twinkling lgihts of life, how could i possible feel that my own was dark and bleak? and then when i watch myself and look in the mirror i cant help but want to cry bc i just do. forget me once, forget me twice...

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30 jan 2002 (later into the night)

hi hi. look its not a wee hour of the night. so how are you? gosh school has been so easy this week (well it is just the beginning of 2 nd semester tho...) and im totally lubbing it. my my jaded heart warns me to be cautious. i know something is goin to come up. but i laff it off! hahaha. lets throw caution in the wind, shall we?

tiff's trying to get someone to go to nsync concert with her. i secretly sorta want to bc hey you arent 17 until you see a screaming boyband in concert. but oye its 55 for one step above nose bleed seats. hmm. and yknow us, itll be memorabilia memorabilia. good times. but i want to go to the dash concert with jinny and johne which we WILL this time. ah to be conflicted with something not emotionally turbulent or school related.

had speech prac today. dude we nailed our piece! now why cant we do that in competition? cross eyr fingers for us at sonora.

on a tangent topic, i went into the teachers restroom by the 500 wing thinking itd be liek the one near counseling (a single restroom) but hell no!! goodness! it was like the typical girls bathroom but in a parallel universe! there were 7 working stalls with plenty of toilet paper and seat covers and cute bottles of soap. it was like heaven on earth. ok maybe not but at the time it was bc yea, i really had to go.

will you marry me? i dunno just thought about throwing the question out there. wanted yall to know. with that i go. bc there isnt anything else i can really jabber about, ive already stretched this convo so thin. nighty

ps too cute eh?

30 jan 2002 (12:23 am)

and from the wreckage you find that tweetie has survived finals week, a speech competition and the drama that is way too much for her mama. ah to be seventeen.

so here it is, what i had been promisihnga nd failed to deliver. gawd damn did i have a busy busy week!! but i topped it off with an emotional turbulent weekend yet a lot of fun fun fun.

while you were gone: i hung out with my bestest enemy in world aylene! raise the roof. hahaha. we drank smirnoffs (i sipped, lene guzzeled) and oogled mark walhberg and antonio sabato jr. tho im still pissed that antonio wasnt in the big hit as much as i thought hed be. due we were soo spontaneous or lacking in thought. we drove to laguna beach, froze our booties off took pics drove tot he mtns took pics got lost (i still want to go to the wild life sanctuary!!) and then went to dance then went back to the beach. fun fun fun. yes lene we do get around.

hi ace. look at this shoutout, arent you happy? hehehe

dont feel like brushing up on everything thats happened to me bc its not worth it. not even the 5 cent version.

i lub JINRA!! she made me this badazz mello yellow cd and i have fallen into a deep lust with rufus wainwright (sp?) and his "cigarettes and chocolate milk" song soo cool beans. and btw dashboard concert march 9. this time we will go! woowoo

nighty kids. xoxox

24 jan 2002 (10:39 pm)

HAPPY 18th MARGIE xoxox!

today was my first final day. i was soo freaken restless. oh well. hehehe speech invitational in 2 days! freakout. woowoo. i still cant believe that i, ms chicken shit herself will be speaking before an audience. i bet you ill forget my lines. hehehe. typical tweetie.

how excited am i? just ask. ok then i will. tweetie how excited are you?

tweetie: IM THIS EXCITED bc on sat i will hang out with the bestest retard in the world and well cut hair, ogle men, dye dye dye hair (bc thats what teenage girls do to bond hahaha) and drink as tho we'd die manana! ok maybe not all that but deinfetly ogle men. hehehe moviefest 2002!

calc final manana! *gasp* heheheh nighty kids. muah

ps i lub thuy. she sums up my life so beautifully:

"i think... u'r in denial becuz u'r lazy and u don't want to make up ur mind"

20 jan 2002 (11:37 pm)

i swear i have the worst time management. topday was my free day for the first time and did i do anything i wanted to do? NO! i didnt revamp this site, didnt do my calc, and so on... but i DID listen to my brand kick booty spanking new TRAVIS cd. booyah. envy me.

life has become soo freaken complicated, so when you see the new site, the title is exactly how i feel. can you feel the anticipation building? suspense you. hahaha. btw tho, it sucks tomorrow is my first legitimate off day from school and what am i doing? studying and working a wonderous 6.5 hr shift! hahaha. very random u see.

the other nite johne and i went around looking at all these houses that we could never afford, in this lifetime, it was cool. architecture, style, XQZ ME license plate, yada yada yda. yes johne those houses will be the place where our bastard linebackers will learn how to play sports and video games. yes indeed.

what does it take to be number 1? this baby. nighty *MUAH* dont wipe yer face

16 jan 2002 (10:27 pm)

omg im soo freaken high right now its crazy. so ayoene is my best fren in the whole world. yea, but anyhoo we havent spoken due to our busy schedules so we had to make up for all the lost retardness in 1.5 hrs. so its allg oing into my new THE BOOK called YOU SHOULD BE A COMEDIAN BY TWEETS NGAYAN so every thing seen in white are excerpts. agree?

yea but i dont have time. so bleh. tell ya manana

nighty

15 jan 2002 (11:27 pm)

throat hurts. can feel mucas clumping. ew ew ew. today was another boring day. the good part was that i actually had hte strength to get up outta bed. hmm im making prgress. anyhoo went to work blah blah. came home blah blah. went to study with tom. better get a good grade in econ manana. talked to ace. made him mad, got myself agitated. can you feel hte short patience span here? anyhoo how cute is my mom?

My dear children, I am so tire and sick so go buy some food. Thanks, Love Mom.

for those of you who have seen my mom, picture her saying this to you. then tell me you didnt laff. hahaha nighty

ps the layout will change but keep this form. watch out now. dun dun dun da dun

14 jan 2002 (9:09 pm)

gosh i feel like crap. blah. whine whine whine. ugh. i felt like crap so much today that i ditched school. i need sleep. slept late into the morn and still feel tired. have a big migraine and oodles of hw. blah the only non crappy moment of my day was when tiff and johne came to my house to cheer me up even tho i ened up bringing em down but yea. i have good frens. i know yer jealous. i hope tomorrow is better. i wont be able to ditch tho...sucks. ok this is enuf. im gonna go. i can only infiltrate so many people. toodles kids

hey dont like this? go here for you old school folks

13 jan 2002 (2:07 am)

gosh how horrible. its been so long since ive updated. so do you like it? hmm getting there...

drop out i didnt have work all this school week yet i still managed to waste a shit load of time and have nothing to show for it. i think that deserves some sort of applause here.

ass-embly the assembly was ok and alright. not the greatest thing and we had to be there at the butt crack of down. well we got there late at 7 but tiff had to call adn wake me at 6 bc we were eating at dennys. i had a totla of 3 hrs of sleep

hit me i saw sara!! (fri) we hung out with tiff and johne and johnp but then tiff left adn it was just us 4. gosh since me and the johns are sleep depreived everything was soo much more funnier. we had a great time. good fun good fun. it was the first time jophnp and i actually had fun hanging out together. ya well we patched things up (in the process) yet we stil dont talk much but then again he has a gf at school and its understandable. but it was fun. ol times. sara and i went to janns fabrics. checked out material for a possible wf dress

ace of clubs i hung out with ace on fri. we went to red lobster and i watched him prep himself for a heartattack by eating all this butter. yuck. you could see the butter ooze out of his pores. gross. then we walked around at the spectrum where he tried to sell to some thugs. gotta lub all the nice things he'll do for ya. *4 fingrs up like a playa* you like that dontcha?

brunettes suck saw legally blonde with my ma today (sat) for the 2nd time. she lubs that movie. freaken makes me want to be a spoiled yet confident blonde who gets into harvard law and does this adn that adn yada. uh huh. im having an anti bruentte moment.

loafers tiff, johne and i hung out today. it was fun adn interesting. we got boba. it was good. makes me pee a lot. thats ok. johne was driving. hahaha. tried to sleep. tiff and johne wont let me. eat with tiff's fam. dont like viet food. i am the anti viet gal. play tag in front of my house. almost die bc i had to "excercise". went inside. weird stuff happened. twilight zone weird. too cmplex

lose you im listening to pete yorn. this song describes sumfin me. too blah to talk

wf = wicked fuck excuse my language. i dont think ill go to winter formal this year adn stop with the crap: its your senior year!! whine whine whine. mmmm bitter

too many mini paragraphs. must update more consistently. go well my children